I'm so excited for my birthday! I went today and bought a really cute outfit! The firt outfit that I picked was the one that I bought. I love that it's easy to shop for myself.

My mom did my taxes and I'm getting $850 back just for my Federal. And she has not done my state taxes yet. Although they usually are nothing. So that's going to go get used to pay off all my small bills. And then what's left over a small portion towards school, and the rest for car insurance. That money will really help me out. And it will make me happy! I've been so stressed out because of money for as long as I can remember!

Over the summer I got into a car accident. I was not driving, Mando was. We were spending the day at the Shedd Aquarium, the Field Museum and then went to the nearby beach. When the day was over, we were leaving the parking lot, as Mando was driving. Take a look...

So that's what happened and a while ago I had an apt to meet with the Allstate Adjuster to have him do the paperwork. Well I missed the apt. cause I forgot about it, and I went today, and he looked at my car and she hit me over the gas cap door. The bumper is all broken and cracked and that's how I got it, and I never said anything about that and he added that to the info and they are going to replace it. And they are going to re-paint my door and give me a whole new side of my car.

Then, Christmas Eve I got into another one, which was not my fault and this is what happened.

And I have to go to court because the cop decided that he's going to send both of us to court to let the judge decide who's fault it is. Which sucks! Oh well though. So it that case when my car gets fixed, they have to re-pain my hood which is awesome cause when I got the car there were a bunch of little knicks in it from like rocks or something, and then a new front bumper and they have to paint the door again I don't know how it's going to work but oh well. And It's like I'm getting a new Autobody for free!

I don't really know what's going on with Brian. I like him and all and for a while he wasn't calling me and I was calling him and leaving him voicemails. And I decided that if he doesn't come to my 21st birthday, then he's not worth it, cause that should mean a lot to me for him to be there. Well today he called me and we were in the phone for over a 1/2 hour. Until we lost reception and I called him and I couldn't get ahold of him. Oh well but the good news is, is that he said that he'll probably make it to my Birthday.

But then the next problem...Mando is going and Mando knows Brian. Mando knows everything between me and Brian and I dunno if they would be cool. I know Brian would with him, but I dunno about Mando with him.

So there is this guy Connor that I grew up with, and over the summer I went to a wedding and he was there. I had to sit at the same table as him and his parents along with my parents. I ended up getting wasted, and Connor and my brother were taking care of me. I eventually saw Connor at Hooters one day and he confessed to me that he has always had a thing for me. Which totally threw me back b/c I always thought that he was hot and that I didn't stand a chance. So we exchanged numbers and attempted to hang out one night and that fell through. So like 2 weeks ago I tried to call Connor since I'm not with Mando anymore and have not been for like 4 months, but his phone was off and I then was like "well how in the hell do I get ahold of this kid?"

Then my really good friend Denise who I work with just started going out with this guy Matt. And Matt came into Hooters and was waiting for some of his guy friends to show up and later they did and one of the guys was Connor. I was so excited and went up to him and said "Hey mister what happened to your phone I couldnt get ahold of you what happened?" and blah blah blah...so I told Denise about the whole past and how he told me he liked me and what not and that I would date him in an instant. So I told her that I want her to slip in that I'm not with Mando anymore so that Connor can take that chance with me. So when she was pouring beer for them she's like "so I have heard a little bit about you" to Connor and he goes "oh yea like what?" and Denise goes "That you like Brittany" and he said "yea well she's got a boyfriend" and she said "not for the past 4 months she hasnt" and he said "oh really?" and I guess all night to all of the guys he was saying that he was going to get my phone number. At the end of the night he got my phone number.

So here's the 3rd problem....Connor is going to my birthday. I told Matt that his birthday present from you to be is going to be Connor! HA HA!

So I hope that no drama goes down.

But I would def take Connor over Brian. I grew up with Connor since we were in diapers. Our parents are friends and Connor and I used to play all the time when we were younger!

And then Joey is the bartender and he knows Mando. I don't care what Joey thinks about Mando. So he can go, but then it's in the case of Brian and Connor. That bother me. I don't think that Mando will have fun. But I dunno what to do.

Hey, sorry I have not updated...Kelly....j/k, my computer is broken and I don't really ever get a chance to get on line. My computer was so old. I need a new one!

So how was everyones Holiday's and New Years!? Mine was ok it could have been better but I still had a great time.

My 21st is in 3 weeks! It's on a monday! Anyone who wants to go out we're going to the Wooden Nickle in Highwood where my friend works and he is going to hook me up with some drinks and getting underage people in the bar! It's going to be a blast so let me know if you want to go, I would love to have everyone be there!

So things have been moving slowly with Brian and I, which is fine that's how I want it. We're not together, we're just dating, but i would love for it to be more, but we're not rushing things. He's about 24/25 and works at Randstad. I miss him a whole hell of a lot! right now he's in Colorado skiing, actually he's probably on his way back now. So lets see, let me fill you in on Brian a little bit. We hung out the day before Christmas Eve which was a Friday. I hung out with him and a bunch of his friends and I got to meet his sister and brother-in-law. They were all really nice. I know 2 of his friends. Anyhow, so we're all drinking and haning out around the fire out side and Brian and I leave at like 3:30 am. He's sitting in his truck as I stand outside, his door open and him facing me and his feet on the ground. We're hugging and he's telling me how good I smell and jokingly biting my neck and saying that I smell so good that he could eat me. He wont let go of me which is fine because I feel so safe and happy in his arms and then he says "It's been so long since I have actually held and smelled a woman...to be honest with you, you were the last person, and it's been too long beofre that for me to even rememer" and that was 3 weeks prior that we got to hang out and cuddle. And then later he says "I have seemed to forget how being held by a woman and smelling one, how entrapped and happy it makes me feel, I really am enjoying it" Which totaly took my breath away and then he looks up at me and says "now I just want to snuggle with you" and thats exactly what we did. We went back to his house (he lives w/ his sister and bro-in-law) and cuddled on the couch all night. It was awesome. And now he's been gone skiing ever since and I have not been able to see him or talk to him and I never got a New Years kiss. I'm waiting for him to come back! Hopefully he didn't get one. Although he goes skiing witht he guys only! HA HA!

Well, I gotta get going....enough typing for me...Take care and Happy New Year Everyone!

Wow...Xanga just told me that it's been 850 days since I joined Xanga. That's about 2 1/2 years. Long time. How long has everyone else been a Xanga member?

So just so ya'll know, my computer is fucked and it has some viruses and so the internet is fucked up. So I'm not on all the time.

work is going good...I guess

I don't talk to Mando anymore.

I like Brian.

Connor is Hot!

I need to get laid.

Jason.....um...don't know what to say....but he's trying to get back to my heart. so in that case..........

IT'S NOT HAPPENING!!

I don't even want a relationship.

Colin Always calls and texts me. Don't want to have anything to do with that.

My 21st birthday is coming on January 23rd. AWESOME!!! Who wants to come out with me on my birthday?

So in that case I just want to lay loose with all of the above. Except Brian and getting laid cause we can put those 2 together.......again. HA.